TGIF! Happy Friday babes! I’m so excited for this week since it is my first Mother’s day! In honor of my first Mother’s day I wanted to talk about my journey.
Ever since I was younger I knew I wanted to be a mom. I knew I wanted to have kids. Like 5 of them. lol When my husband and I first got married we wanted to wait a couple of years before trying to have kids. Fast forward a year later and this girl had BABY FEVER. All the girls at my work were pregnant and I loved seeing them grow. We had started to try. Now I was so naive and thought it was super easy to get pregnant.
I mean you spend all of your teenage years hearing from your parents that it’s so easy to get pregnant so you better wait until marriage. Well that is definitely not the case. We tried and tried every month and every month I would get a negative result. My first OBGYN had told us if you want to get pregnant this is the weekend to do it. This was our window. You’re healthy and you will definitely get pregnant. Months later and many more negative tests later we decided to stop trying and give ourselves a break. It was starting to become too stressful.
After months of ‘not trying but kind of trying’ I decided to go to a different OBGYN just to make sure everything was ok. This doctor gave me some hormone pills to get it all started and I would have to come back in a week just to see where we were at. I forgot to mention I was feeling sick during this time but all of my tests said negative. After a few days on this pill I started to feel really sick. I was tired, nauseous but all of these negative tests said negative. I didn’t get it.
I remember the day was Saturday and I woke up again feeling sick. I thought maybe I was getting the flu. My husband suggested getting another pregnancy test and I told him..we just took one a few days ago it was negative. We ended up going anyway. I went to the bathroom as soon as we got home and was expecting another negative……two lines popped up... I screamed for my husband and there we were crying together while I was still sitting on the toilet. LOL I was pregnant. We were going to be parents.
Fast forward during my 10 months of pregnancy and almost a year later. Here we have our beautiful baby girl. I can’t believe she is 10 months and in two more months she will be 1. Where did the time go? How can I make time stop? Can I please make her my baby forever? Being her mom is the best thing that has ever happened to me. This was it. She was everything that we had been praying for. During my college years I couldn’t figure out what I was meant to do in life. I’m a certified dental assistant and thought about going on to dental hygiene but something just wasn’t right. I was happy working in dental very much so! But it didn’t feel right…nothing felt right.
Until…I became a mother. Once I became a mother.. I finally found it. I finally found what I was meant to do & be. God gave me this special job of being Lily’s mother. No matter if it’s a good day or a bad day I thank God every day for blessing me with Lily. Motherhood is extremely exhausting but so amazing and rewarding and I wouldn’t have it any other way.