Happy Thursday babes! Today I’m talking about something I wasn’t going to share with anyone ever. I was just going to keep it curled up in a ball and put it away deep down. On February 18th we decided to take Lily to the Kansas City Zoo for the first time. We were so excited. The night before I had trouble sleeping. I woke up with pain in my stomach thinking maybe it was my acid reflux so I took my medicine then tried to go back to sleep and I couldn’t. I was just in so much pain. We went to the zoo and I was struggling. I couldn’t enjoy the day. We ended up leaving because I was in so much pain. My MIL watched Lily while Luke took me to urgent care. Urgent care wanted me to go to the ER right away.
To the ER we went. They ran tests, did x-rays, drew blood, sonograms, the works. There we found out 3 things: I was pregnant with our second child, I needed my gall bladder removed, & it was an Ectopic pregnancy. My baby could not survive. I was devastated. Luke and I weren’t even planning another child. Lily was still a baby and I was so overwhelmed and felt like I was in a daze. Everything was just happening at once and I was scared. In and Out came nurses and doctors and I was admitted to the hospital.
I feel like I had so many nurses and doctors- OB & my gallbladder doctor (I don’t know his actual name lol) my surgeon. We talked about all of my options and since my Fallopian tube wasn’t ruptured and it was early I could just do an injection to stop the pregnancy. My heart broke. I mean I knew the pregnancy couldn’t continue, there was no chance of survival but I felt like we were doing something wrong. I don’t want to go into too much detail about everything because it is still so raw for me.
Fast forward: My Pregnancy terminated and I got my gallbladder removed. There are days where I still think about our second baby. I always wonder if it was normal would it have been a boy or girl. I’ve kept quiet about this for so long. Only immediate family knew about this pregnancy, and it feels good that I’m being open about this. I don’t know what the future holds for us: if we are going to have anymore kids, will it be normal pregnancies, will we adopt, or are we done. All I know is that God has a plan for us and I put my trust in him.
Hugs,
Lynn
Oh Lynn, I’m so sorry you went through this love. Thank you for sharing your story with us, I’m positive you will help someone else out there. Help someone realize just like you have, God has a plan and it’s the best plan for you, Luke, and Lily 💛
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Thank you Jen<3
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That’s such a hard thing to keep to yourself. Thank you for sharing and I’m so sorry you had to go through that. You are so right, though; in the end, God already knows the plan for our lives and all we can do is walk by faith!
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Thanks Taylor! It was definitely hard to keep to myself.
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Lynn, you are so strong! I am so sorry you had to endure this type of pain. But like you said, God has a plan for you all. Continue to put your trust and faith in him.
Love you girl 😘
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Thanks Aseky<3 Love you too!
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Lynn I am so sorry to hear you had to go through this! God will never give you more than you can handle and we just have to trust the path He had us on. I’m sure sharing this experience will help someone else going through a similar situation. Giving you a big internet hug 🤗
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Thank you Ryan! Hugs!
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So sorry to read this.
God has a plan.
You are abd have been so strong!
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Thank you so much<3
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I’m so sorry Lynn but I’m so proud you are sharing your experience and feelings. Big hugs girl and thank you for sharing!
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Thank you Lauren<3
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How about I give you a huge hug! I am so sorry you are going through this. I can’t imagine the array of emotions you must be going through. We love you & are here for you sister girl!
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Thank you my friend<3
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I love you girl. I’m so sorry this happened and so sorry you felt like you had to keep it to yourself. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I love you and will be praying for you three. ❤️
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Thank you Alex<3 It was defiantly hard to keep to myself but glad I finally shared. Love you too<3
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I’m so sorry you went through all of this Lynn and appreciate you sharing your story and thoughts. While we don’t always understand why certain situations happen it is comforting in knowing that God does have a plan for you ❤ Beautifully Candid
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Thank you Sierra<3 I really appreciate it.
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