Struggling with Postpartum Body/ Bulimia?

It’s been 14 months since Lily was born. She is absolutely the best thing that I have ever done. If you asked me what have I done in my life so far that has made me proud? I would answer: Giving birth to Lily. That is what I’m most proud of. Our bodies go through this amazing transformation. We grew our babies for almost 10 months and then we give birth and there they are in our arms stealing our hearts! I honestly have a love/hate relationship with my body.

I love my body because it grew my little princess. I hate my body because I have extra skin everywhere and I HATE it. This is probably one of the hardest posts I have written because this is something I’ve hidden for years. My husband is like the only person that ever knew about this until now.. I struggle with Bulimia. It is a constant battle. I don’t sit in a room and just binge on junk food. If it’s something too much, I just get the urge to throw it up.

I was getting better until recently its gotten a little worse. It’s time I end it here. It’s time to get better. With the help of my supportive husband I’m going to try to really beat this. It truly is a constant battle with myself but I have to be the best me I can be. I have to learn to love my body and lose weight the healthy way. I need this change. It is time to change. I don’t ever want Lily to grow up and ever hate her body or ever having an eating disorder. I need to be the best Mom I can be. I need to take care of myself.

I don’t want to go into too much detail right now but if you could please pray to give me strength, it would mean the world to me.

Hugs,

Lynn

 

8 thoughts on “Struggling with Postpartum Body/ Bulimia?

  1. Sending you a million hugs & prayers. Eating disorders are so difficult to live with. Seek out counseling/therapy I believe it will help greatly to reach deeper into how you feel about your body. We are all a work in progress & the fact that you are taking the innitiative now is amazing & takes so much strength. Don’t ever forget that!

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  2. You’re already at step one for having courage to share it and face it with the world in front of you. I believe in you, and I know you can do it. I struggled with body issues after my firstborn and didn’t know what to do. Love you beautiful mama! Stay strong and holla if you need anything. Xoxo

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  3. Oh Lynn, I am standing over here in Texas clapping for your vulnerable heart. I pray that God right now renews your mind. I pray that all negative self shaming comments and thoughts be removed in Jesus name. I pray that He brings the right people across your path to help this journey of healing your mind, body, and spirit. Girl, you are brave! I will be keeping me in your prayers constantly. Please reach out to me if you ever need anything!

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