It’s been 14 months since Lily was born. She is absolutely the best thing that I have ever done. If you asked me what have I done in my life so far that has made me proud? I would answer: Giving birth to Lily. That is what I’m most proud of. Our bodies go through this amazing transformation. We grew our babies for almost 10 months and then we give birth and there they are in our arms stealing our hearts! I honestly have a love/hate relationship with my body.
I love my body because it grew my little princess. I hate my body because I have extra skin everywhere and I HATE it. This is probably one of the hardest posts I have written because this is something I’ve hidden for years. My husband is like the only person that ever knew about this until now.. I struggle with Bulimia. It is a constant battle. I don’t sit in a room and just binge on junk food. If it’s something too much, I just get the urge to throw it up.
I was getting better until recently its gotten a little worse. It’s time I end it here. It’s time to get better. With the help of my supportive husband I’m going to try to really beat this. It truly is a constant battle with myself but I have to be the best me I can be. I have to learn to love my body and lose weight the healthy way. I need this change. It is time to change. I don’t ever want Lily to grow up and ever hate her body or ever having an eating disorder. I need to be the best Mom I can be. I need to take care of myself.
I don’t want to go into too much detail right now but if you could please pray to give me strength, it would mean the world to me.