Hello friends! Happy Monday! It has been quite awhile since I have posted on here but if you follow me on Instagram I’ve been very active on there. I have had a few questions about how my anxiety and depression and have been and I wanted to give you all an update. You all are so sweet to be checking in on me and I truly love this community.
I’m currently almost 10 weeks pregnant and officially went off on my anxiety & depression medication. With the help of my doctor I slowly and safely went off of it because I felt ready for it. Now my doctor did say since I was on a low dosage it would be safe to be on it during pregnancy but I personally just wanted to be off of it. So far I have been ok. I of course still get my moments where I feel overwhelmed or depressed but it is a lot better than it has been from when I first started. I will always battle with this for the rest of my life and that is ok. I am worried after having this baby that my depression and anxiety will get worse since I did have ppd/ppa but I feel that I am aware of the signs this time around and have the resources I need to get through it.
It is officially the Holiday Season and I wanted to talk to you all about Mental Health + Holidays. Lets face it, Holidays are STRESSFUL. If you know me, then you know that we travel often to both sides of the family on each holiday and it is A LOT. Last year I was very stressed out during the holiday season like I always am, but a lot of you had messaged me on Instagram telling me to take care of myself and to take it easy. To CANCEL for my health. Well friends, we are at that time. After dealing with mental health and wanting to be the best mom & wife I can be, I have decided to say no more. I sat down one day thinking about all the things that trigger my anxiety and depression and now I try to avoid all of those triggers the best I can. What good am I if I’m purposely putting myself in a situation that will trigger myself to shut down and feel out of control. That does my husband know good or my daughter.
I am getting rid of all stressful triggers and that includes being around certain people. My family means everything to me and I want to be HAPPY during this holiday season and to do that I have to take care of myself and my mental health. Unfortunately, I have already had to tell someone that we are no longer participating in those functions and maybe I shouldn’t be writing this but the thing is with my blog and my followers I have always been open and honest. I have never been ashamed to tell anyone of my body image issues, or my mental health so I feel strongly that if someone is out there feeling how I’m feeling and this helps them, then I am happy.
You can’t please everyone. That’s something my parents always taught me. So with this holiday season we are taking it easy and doing what makes us happy. Let me tell you, my anxiety level has gone down and I couldn’t be happier.
To anyone out there that feels overwhelmed with anxiety or depression, you are not alone. It does get better. It will always be a battle but know that there are others out there going through the same thing and I’m always here with open arms. Remember to take care of yourself & your mental health in this holiday season.